Grief

Definition:

Grief is not sadness
Grief is not sorrow

It’s the thing you never said
It’s the plans that never came to fruition
It’s that joke no one else got
It’s that secret no one else shares
It’s having to stop everything again for them
It’s learning how much you never knew
It’s knowing there are things you never will
It’s when every little object is important
It’s when every little object is meaningless
It’s making a tough phone call
It’s knowing the phone will never ring again
It’s a shift in the pecking order
It’s a loss of role
It’s taking on a new one
It’s unfulfilled potential
It’s a shameful relief
It’s a wake up call
It’s a new beginning
It’s a final end
It’s heaviness in your chest
It’s asking to be left alone
It’s feeling alone
It’s flinching at the checkout when they ask about your day
It’s saying that keeping busy keeps your mind off things
It’s finding comfort in your art
It’s when it’s all a waste of time
It’s being strong for everyone else
It’s breaking down and asking for help
It’s not understanding why you can’t cry
It’s not understanding why you can’t stop
It’s being scared to cry
It’s being completely unafraid to feel
It’s not knowing what to say
It’s knowing exactly what they’d say
It’s feeling guilty when a laugh slips out
It’s when every song becomes whimper
It’s when you know they are never far away
It’s when you still speak to them all the time
It’s when you are lucky to still hear them
It’s when you still look to see if their car is there
It’s when you forget what they sounded like
It’s when you try so hard to remember
It’s when you least expect it
It’s every fucking day
It’s what brings us closer
It’s what makes them feel so far away
It’s when you finally find forgiveness
It’s when you have to leave it unresolved
It’s for who they were
It’s for who they’ll never be
It’s for who you got to be
It’s for who you will never be again
It’s for who you now become
It’s everything you took for granted
It’s everything you will never let go of again
It’s never forgetting the date
It’s forgetting the date
Its wondering why your body remembered
It’s what we all feel eventually
It’s what no one understands
It’s the worst thing that could happen
It’s knowing you were lucky